wow. it all ends/begins, tomorrow. this summer comes to an abrupt halt as I move in to my new apartment and get prepared for a new year, Junior year to be exact. This will be the start of my third year in college. Thinking back three years ago today, i was a nervous wreck, scared, anxious, and sad to be leaving home. Now, I would love to tell you that it's easier and that I'm just ready to get out, but if I did, I would be lying through my teeth. My family is a really deep part of me; its more than a stable unit with a warm meal on weekends. They are my rock, refuge, and best of friends. My family is my "safe place," a "haven" when all else around me is unstable, and this summer I have thoroughly enjoyed the safety of home.
I am very excited to get back to school, to see what the Lord has in store for me, and to get back to my school "family" that has its own very special place in my heart. There are no better friends than those that I've met in these past 2 years of college. It feels as if we've known each other a lifetime & that kind of friendship is a rarity. God has blessed me so much with these people who not only share my love for our school, hobbies, and spending time together but more importantly we all share a deep love of the Father, which makes our bond exponentially stronger. I cannot describe in words just the impact that they have had on my life and the impact I see them having in the future. Without them, I would, in no way, be the same person that I am today.
So tonight, I reminisce on the fun, relaxing, and carefree summer that I am leaving behind, but I also anticipate the joys and blessings of the coming year. As I have written in the past and eluded to previously, I did not live out the Christian life of dependancy on God last semester as I should have. This not only directly effected my life, but more importantly affected my influence on those around me. For that I will always be incredibly sorry and repentant, knowing that God did things despite my attitude but things would have been easier if only I had obeyed. No regrets though, only learning and growing. God used this "desert road" experience in my life to develop my increased dependence on Him & obedience to His commands. One of my favorite verses and themes of this past summer has been Ezekiel 37:4, where the Lord says that He will replace in you a NEW heart & you become a NEW person in CHRIST. As one of my best friends told me when she was telling me of her summer at sbp, she said "Did you know that when we accept Christ, God sees Christ's perfection instead of our sin? I've never realized that before! HOW COOL?!" Thank the Lord for His mercies every day! Let the glory & praise come to Him this year.
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