Being back at school has really been a roller coaster of emotions. On one hand, I am so so so happy to be back and reunited with all of my friends-or my school family. On the other hand, I was not ready to deal with life when I got back. And thats a problem seeing that being at school, where I'm preparing for my future career and plans, is ALL about life. Such a strange world we live in. I've been thinking a lot lately--shocker, I know--about my 20 years of life. What have they been filled with? What have I gotten out of them? Who have I served with them? The list could go on and on.
The answers to these questions have not been easy pills to swallow, nor have they been clear. I'm a sophomore in college and I don't really know what I want to do with my life, much less what God wants me to do with it. I know that ultimately He has a grand plan, but right now what am I supposed to do?
A verse popped into my mind tonight when I was at church with a friend. I read this verse last semester on a retreat and it had been in my mind for a while after. But as we all know, things happen, we get busy and things cloud our minds.
The verse is Psalm 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God."
What does that even mean? I can never truly be still, my heart will always be beating (for as long as I live), my mind will be thinking, my ears will be hearing, all of these involuntary actions we do everyday. But no, to be STILL and KNOW that He is God is to stop. Stop planning. Stop worrying. Just be. Just sit and think about the God of the universe. He is in control. It is Him we are here to glorify and it is Him that we are here to worship and tell everyone about. So when life gets me down, when it becomes too much, I can remember this verse. I can remember Gods power, His love, His gentleness, as well as His purpose for me. Putting that into perspective will enable me to let everything go, and not just the things that I can't control, but the things I can. All of my life, I give to you Lord.
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