Today was my "little" brothers birthday. When i say little i'm referring to a 5' 9" 150lbs. boy who looks like a linebacker--actually he is one. He turned 14. 14?! I cannot believe how old he's gotten. its insane! Time goes by so quickly, even though each day seems long, and the hours seem longer. I'll be 20 in a few months. Are you kidding me?! I'm not a teenager anymore?! What happened to being 16? I never thought i'd get older. but now i'm in college, and i'm about to be half of 40. i actually teared up earlier today when that was brought to my attention, however embarrassed i am to admit. :)

On another note-

I've been wondering: Why am I always the bigger person? No matter if its in actual size or in theory of being more mature than another person. I'm always that person. I think it might be someone else's turn now. I guess it says something about my character that i'm always the bigger, more mature person. But at some point you just wanna say "Life's not fair!" and get a do over or something.

oh well. that's life and i guess i'll learn from it? :) Let go and let God.