getting closer

Heading off to college is one of those milestones in a persons life. One that is exciting, scary, fun, uncomfortable, exhilarating, and a whole other bag of emotions. In about a little less than a month, I will be moving off to college. I feel like I'm leaving tomorrow, most of my friends are. Its hard. Its hard to see the people that you have grown up with and gone to class with for the past 12 or so years, leaving and moving on with their lives. Don't get me wrong, I'll have my turn soon enough, but a little piece of my heart leaves with each one of them. Its crazy. Some of these people I just barely got to know, maybe we had a class or two together senior year or maybe we had a mutual friend. But still with these acquaintances, I feel like a part of my home is leaving. I guess it is. I'm so happy for them- and me- to be going away from home and making new friends and new beginnings. However, there is sadness to everything. As many others have said, when one door closes another one opens. It's a tad cliche, but it fits. Just as our high school years end (door closes) our college ones begin (open).

God has set us all up for His perfect plan. Each one will be different and more extraordinary than the last. One thing I have learned from my pastors recent teaching series is that from great tragedy comes great triumph. I may lose some close friends for a while, only God knows who I will keep in touch with, but I know that I will gain many more that will lead me to His purpose for me.

If this is hard for me, I know its hard for my parents. I love them to death. They are absolutely the perfect parents for me. Now, do not get me wrong. I've had differences with each one of them, but if it were not for them and their ways I would not be the person I am today. My mom especially is taking it kinda hard that I'll be leaving. We're really close. I have to spread my wings and she knows that; its still hard. She wants as much time with me as possible and I want to spend time with my friends. Figure out how that one works out evenly. It doesn't. I'm starting to learn how to balance my friends and my family.

Cant wait to start this crazy college life. Its gonna be a roller coaster, good thing I love a good ride.