getting closer

Heading off to college is one of those milestones in a persons life. One that is exciting, scary, fun, uncomfortable, exhilarating, and a whole other bag of emotions. In about a little less than a month, I will be moving off to college. I feel like I'm leaving tomorrow, most of my friends are. Its hard. Its hard to see the people that you have grown up with and gone to class with for the past 12 or so years, leaving and moving on with their lives. Don't get me wrong, I'll have my turn soon enough, but a little piece of my heart leaves with each one of them. Its crazy. Some of these people I just barely got to know, maybe we had a class or two together senior year or maybe we had a mutual friend. But still with these acquaintances, I feel like a part of my home is leaving. I guess it is. I'm so happy for them- and me- to be going away from home and making new friends and new beginnings. However, there is sadness to everything. As many others have said, when one door closes another one opens. It's a tad cliche, but it fits. Just as our high school years end (door closes) our college ones begin (open).

God has set us all up for His perfect plan. Each one will be different and more extraordinary than the last. One thing I have learned from my pastors recent teaching series is that from great tragedy comes great triumph. I may lose some close friends for a while, only God knows who I will keep in touch with, but I know that I will gain many more that will lead me to His purpose for me.

If this is hard for me, I know its hard for my parents. I love them to death. They are absolutely the perfect parents for me. Now, do not get me wrong. I've had differences with each one of them, but if it were not for them and their ways I would not be the person I am today. My mom especially is taking it kinda hard that I'll be leaving. We're really close. I have to spread my wings and she knows that; its still hard. She wants as much time with me as possible and I want to spend time with my friends. Figure out how that one works out evenly. It doesn't. I'm starting to learn how to balance my friends and my family.

Cant wait to start this crazy college life. Its gonna be a roller coaster, good thing I love a good ride.

round 1

so i just got this blog, i dont exactly know who would read this or why but i get bored A LOT so this should help.

first of all, im about to be a college freshman--scary. ive been looking forward to this for, i dont know, maybe 4 years, now its here and i dont know what i think about it. college is going to be awesome! but so different. im looking forward to the great adventure of it all. the suspense and fear, hard work, and fun that comes with the university setting. the anxiety of it all is sometimes just a little too much to bear. not to mention that there are so many other stressful things going on in my life at this point.

to start with, my parents are divorced. thats cliche in this day and age but each person deals with it differently. we recently went back to court. talk about opening old wounds! oh well.

in another part of my life, a really big part, is my Lord and Savior. He is the only thing that has ever gotten me through this life. i love my life, every breath is a blessing from Him, but great triumph comes with great tragedy. as everyone else in this world has, i have experienced loss. my grandparents died while i was in high school. my grandmother was one of my closest friends. she didnt get to see me graduate. I do know that she is with her heavenly father, rejoicing and praising Him right now. I love them and miss them so much!

my major is biology with a pre med focus. i want to help kids with cancer. thats my passion that the Lord has given me. but i also love to write, and would love to minor in english or something like that. ive actually kind of started like a short story/book already. and i really want to get one published before i die.

well i guess thats enough for right now. dont want to bore everyone. :)